It's all so different....

My lil angel washed my contacts down the sink last night...so I'm wearing these VERY old glasses. My newer ones were broken a few months ago. I feel so vulnerable in glasses! I can only see what is RIGHT in front of me. I do think it's funny though, it was hard to keep a straight face to take this picture....

Lots of stuff going on Kenzie's daycare has a new management taking over, apparently Easter Seals just DID NOT CUT IT. All employees were trying to find other jobs, just to get AWAY from ES. We've got some good teachers and so we (parental board) are trying to get some of them back to try it out with the new management. It's drama, I'm also looking into finding maybe a Montessori Preschool for baby girl, she's young but I've heard that most waiting lists well, are about a year long so now is the time!! We'll see.

Ahhh. . . Relaxing.

I've been having fun and staying busy but ironically, i feel so happy and relaxed right now it is awesome. I'm just happy hanging out with my beautiful baby girl.

Cooking! I can tell i'm getting settled!

I'm cooking, Kenzie came to the kitchen to wait for food in her high chair, life is good. I have to be comfortable to cook, and this smells so so good. I know i'll have sweet dreams.

Blueness. . .

My toenails are blue, it gets lots of reactions. One day I wore a blue earrings, one sweet guy i work with told me thats cute. Another day i wore a blue shirt, a guy said my toes match my shirt, he asked if i planned it 'No, i've been feeling blue.'.

Sunny!

I love it when it's sunny very, temperate weather. I bet it is about 70 degrees or so, i'm downtown waiting for my ride now. It's so pleasant!

Reasons to ride the cup I mean. .bus. :)

Dude, i just wrote so much that got deleted. . .SUCKS! I was writing about how t9 thinks that 'cup' is a much more popular word than 'bus' it's not encouraging people to use public transit thats for sure. At least they advertise to sports numbskulls.

Therapy!

I was feeling kind of down, (Venus is in retrograde, relevent?), so I went to pike place market and came back to the office bearing fruit. It made me feel better to share and make other people healthier too. Now I'm wondering about that water taxi :)

WTF?!?

Maybe this is 'slow' because it's not working? They don't want help? Trainers keep dying? I don't think it means we need to stay!!!

Happy toddler girl!

We had fun today! Dan was in town and we went to the pike market and then costco, both were exhausting but fun! He got us an awesome piggy bank and I'm totally going back tomorrow at lunch to get fresh fruit and vegi's, no excuses!

My knee, ow.

Ow!!

I whacked my knee on a drawer at Poppa's house on Friday night. . .it REALLY hurt, and it looks funny, so i took a picture. Ow.

I'm grateful for (there's more but this is the top 10);

1.) More positive posts than usual on the mom-list.
2.) That I found a place I can afford that is close to a grocery store, park, lots of coffee shops, and a bus that takes me right downtown to my job so I don't need a car.
3.) My beautiful little girl is growing up and can communicate more every day, and even makes jokes! (almost 2)
4.) I'm far far away from the mess that was my situation in NYC
5.) That I have health insurance for my baby and myself and good doctors to see when we get sick or need help avoiding getting sick. It also covers my very expensive prescriptions.
6.) By Monday I'll be out of the 4 person office and into a 2 person office with one of my great new co-workers.
7.) I have a new friend who loves taking care of Kenzie, and refuses to take money (a miracle...no?)
8.) I can still talk to my friends in NYC, GA etc. via email and cel.
9.) I can communicate with my sister in Iraq via IM, blog and email (Thank you Internet!!)
10.) My little girl thinks my silly silly jokes are funny and we laugh every day...even the really really tough ones.

Hmmm. . .

Apparently, my co-workers think my lack of Monty Python knowledge is serious enough that i found this on my desk. . . Interesting. It was a rough day so we'll see if this makes me forget about it. . .

I like this quote

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Offensive to say College is good???

I don't get it! I belong (-ed?) to this single mom's group here in Seattle, and I had the nerve to say that college does say something good about a person. If someone graduates college it does show determination, anyone who has ever been to school at all knows it is more than just sitting through class, it's about going through the whole 'system' if you will.

Unfortunately, there were people who interpreted what I said, as saying that people who went to college are 'better' which is NOT the case, it is more about different priorities not more brain power. People have a lot of different facets that make them who they are, just think about dating and how complicated it is (was) to meet "Mr. Right".

Anyway, that whole thread, that involved both positive and negative responses got deleted for getting 'out of hand', I think it is sad, that anyone could be so offended by hearing something good about being a college graduate.

SO...if there are any other educated young single mom's out there...and I know they are I just don't hear from them as much, GOOD JOB, you are taking care of business and I wish I knew you. It drives me crazy to think that women feeling sorry for themselves for being in their situation rather than taking control and straightening their life out seems to be so many of the single moms out there. It really motivates me though to talk about the fact that it IS possible to do just that.


One year ago, I didn't have a job, and I was staying at a friends house in Brooklyn NY, Now I am in Seattle, I have a good salary job with benefits and just moved into a >1000sq foot apartment with my almost 2 year old baby. We are away from the really complicated situation in Brooklyn and in the process of creating a very solid foundation to grow upon. My baby girl goes to a nice daycare downtown less than 2 blocks from my job, and we commute together every day by bus.

I feel happy and confident that I am doing the right thing, and setting a good example for my daughter. We have fun, tickle fights are a daily requirement ;-) and she's even still nursing! I'm glad I can say I'm proud and have accomplished a lot here, please don't get offended, I worked hard to get to where I'm at, and this is just the beginning. Also...my college degree I am SURE had a huge part in getting my life to where it is today.

I do miss my friends in NYC though, we could talk and disagree, still laugh AND be friends, I hope I make some more friends here too. My Seattle Hip Mama's group is growing well so that is good, I just need some more working Hip Mama's on there so I can meet some! Last time I checked we are up to 52 members.

Have a good night, I'm going to try and sleep again, even though I do have to be up in about...an hour and a half or so.

She just totally peed in the toilet!

She said pee pee and i put her on the toilet and she peed! first time ever! I'm so proud! We're on our way to the aquarium now.

Bye bye! !

I just turned around when she said bye bye and this is where she was. . .lol. I love my baby. Happy saturday!

Working out...

I just realized something funny, I'm reading this book, it's about women's sexuality. The further I get into it though it really is based on women's health from a Taoist perspective. I love it! I'm taking much better care of myself.

For instance, last night I hurt my back, it was a stupid thing I was laying in the bec and tried to stay laying down when it was time to pick up Kenzie. Next thing I know there is a SHARP pain in my back. I didn't think much of it all day because my office work didn't trigger it, but man, when I picked up Kenzie? OUCH! So luckily, after a visit and nice dinner with my mom Kenzie went down nice and easy, so I grabbed the book and decided to take a hot bath, sooth my mind a bit and hopefully my back. In the book it talked about breathing and meditation to balance chi etc. it was all fun, it even totally recommended laughing!! The logic behind it made perfect sense to me. So then I get out of the bath, and I decided to work my abs, I figure my abs help support my back and they need to be stronger anyway. Plus of course I noticed there was a little bit more padding. It's interesting because a few months ago my abs were flatter, and ironically I think it is because I started seeing a trainer...and working out MUCH less at home. So I did what is usually my 'normal' ab routine, lots of crunches, stretches, leans, I started doing pushups too but that hurt, my chest was still sore from my workout a few days ago. So then I started STRETCHING and man did it feel good. I pushed it too, I thought back to my Hapkido days and now amazed I was at how fast I was able to get more flexible. Eventually I found a good stretch that is hard to describe that really worked that part of my back that is sore! I'm glad because I think that means it's definitely a tweaked muscle not a pinched nerve or anything, and now I'm going to religiously stretch it and keep up with my normal ab work. I was very happy with the way I looked a few months ago, and that's all I was doing! So if I keep doing this AND the gym, it'll be nice. I'm excited because I haven't really gotten into the cardio yet and I know that'll make a huge difference too.

SO yeah, was that totally boring? I don' t care, I don't think anyone is reading this anyway. For me this whole experience is very therapeutic and I am really enjoying the process of getting to really know and take good care of myself in every way, spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally and much much more.

I think I base too much of life around my phone, I think that I will try and schedule 'off' times, during the weekend at least. So I'm forced to focused on my present reality and enjoy the moments I'm living as I live them.

Funny girl this is when we were at Alki!

She loves making faces and making people laugh she was trying to make a fish face just like mommy.

Whew!!

I guess I haven't really talked about it much but I joined a gym recently...it's close to my job so I can go a lunch or after work. It is working out great because Kenzie is in daycare of course and so I'm able to focus. I've been working with a trainer who is awesome and totally works me out when I see her. Right now for instance I am SO SO SORE from Tuesday's workout. I need to get into doing more cardio, it'll happen soon especially if I do as I said I would and cut back on the match dates. I haven't really gone on any recently just because I was kind of focused on one guy, we're doing the friends thing now though so who knows. I'm going to just chill and workout at lunch focus on getting to know myself.

I'll be getting a massage today hopefully it won't be too painful for my aching muscles. I'm looking forward to this weekend, lots of plans, I'll be meeting up with my Seattle Hip Mama's group and then going to my friend Candace's pool, Kenzie was there yesterday and loved it. On Sunday I'll be hanging out with my buddy Andy I think we'll hit up the aquarium and then I'll go get all mani-pedi-cured up with my sister and stepmom...busy but it'll be good.

I'm finally getting a LOT more furniture in my place, there should be a couch there (loveseat) by the time I get home, my mom is bringing it in from storage, it is SUCH a comfortable couch. I also have 2 chairs, I think they're called 'winged' or something, kind of granny-ish but they are pretty comfortable!! I need to find out how to cover them. Or how to get my mom to do it, she's an excellent sewer!! Yesterday we moved a lot into my house, including the huge horse painting that I really like...now we have to figure out how to hang it...interesting. I hope we don't break the wall down!

I'm totally loving my apartment, I'm starting to meet more neighbors and Kenzie and I are settling into a routine...it's fabulous.

I don't think I'm ready for a boyfriend, there is so many other things going on, oh I also have a Parental Board Meeting later today!! (Whew!!) lots of stuff. I also signed up for Clearwire and have internet at home, so I'll be more present online for sure.

So, nevermind about that new Lex, it was one of those cases of misbalanced 'like' and different life phases. I'm bummed about it, I think I'll stay out of Match at least for a little while and see what my friends have in store for me, yeah, friends are what I really need, if I get a lot of good friends and build my network naturally I think that would work better. Match makes it too easy to just drop somebody and look at 20 more. Relationships can be so good but man, my instinct is way off.

Yesterday baby girl and I went to Alki as you can see in the pictures below, that was fun it was just beautiful out. We couldn't really job (candace was with me) because Kenzie wanted to be held, but I might try again tonight at Lincoln Park, IF I'm not exhausted from today's workout in the gym.

Everything is coming together very well!!!

Hmm...I just tried to type in a title and it didn't work, we'll see if anything comes up later.

My title was going to be "Everything is progressing very well" because well, it is!! Our apartment is coming together nicely. I'm spending too much but it's hard to not NEED so many new things...yesterday I bought a pan for instance, a braazillian coffee press, coffee, and well I don't know, a water bottle for the gym with a carribeaner to hold my keys, and then lots of groceries and a tank of gas. There was more too but my goodness it's amazing mow things add up!!

Kenzie and I had a gread day yesterday, anyone who spoke to me in the morning would be surprised to hear me say that, I was grumpy then, but it all turned out really well. Gail even came over with more groceries and then we went and got sushi and wine!! Yay!!

I have to go wake up Kenzie so we can rush to the bus now...I feel so content and happy. I have a lot more to share but the clock says that will have to wait. I'll tell you about my new Lex later----;-)

Shopping!

I am SOO loving life.

I have my books out, I have new shelves, they look cool, my paintings are up on the wall, I have cool friends coming to visit me, I do still need Costco to get water and stuff, oh, and I have plants, that'll be the next picture.