Phone is working!

I missed my phone, only took 2 months of waiting for it to dry out. . . :-D

Taurus

I can't sleep right now, and so I just watched a movie called "Serendipity". It is a really cute movie, and all about destiny/fate/coincidences etc.

It is interesting to dig really deeply into events that touch the soul.

I'm doing an exercise now that breaks down a negative event thought by thought, each linking to the next in regards to what it means or represents. I've been on edge the last few days and have been trying to pinpoint 'why' in a simple way, but it really isn't that simple...or so I thought. Little irritating things are irritating because they point to bigger thoughts and feelings below that are sometimes really not all that apparent, or to make the assumption that they are seems dramatic but if you go step by step it makes sense.

I was only kind of thinking about that stuff while watching Serendipity, and then I came online, and saw part of my horoscope that stuck me:

Ambition and achievement are qualities you hold in special regard now.

It's true.

Religion

I just took the Religion/Spiritual Quiz off of the wsuu.org site and this is how I came out:

1.	Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2.	Liberal Quakers (89%)
3.	Neo-Pagan (88%)
4.	New Age (85%)
5.	Secular Humanism (79%)
6.	Theravada Buddhism (78%)
7.	Mahayana Buddhism (75%)
8.	New Thought (72%)
9.	Reform Judaism (70%)
10.	Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (68%)
11.	Scientology (65%)
12.	Jainism (62%)
13.	Taoism (60%)
14.	Hinduism (59%)
15.	Bahá'í Faith (59%)

It is so interesting to see the variety of what comes up as far as what I 'believe' and how I feel...I think it is very true and almost comical that the UU came out on top though, I never believed in organized religion, I didn't participate and didn't really see it as beneficial aside from people finding comfort in people raised the same way as them. When I went to the WSUU, especially on Mother's Day, which I think was my second week....I cried.

It was the kind of cry, that was like a dream coming true, that I never really believed would come true. I was surrounded by nice, friendly people, who were sympathetic to my negative/agnostic views of church and god, and very respectful when I say that the most I can say I believe in is... Love.

I just wanted to post this because if there's anyone out there like me, who is NOT into religion, but appreciates a loving supportive spiritual environment that isn't afraid to be whoever they are, and will accept others in the same light...there is a place out there for you.

Vows..

It is an interesting and very deep process trying to figure out how to best and most accurately describe the love and goals we have of joining together in marriage. I'm really excited for this to all come together...and it feels good to know it will.

:-)

NIghtmares

My baby girl is growing up...I remember getting scared sometimes at night...the last two nights she has woken up between 1-2:30am and stayed up for at least an hour...last night I think was the worst, it dragged on till past 4am, and needless to say...I am very tired.

She to read a book when she wakes up at this time, turn a light on, cling onto me, and sometimes eat/drink something. Last night she ate about 3 cheese sticks and drank a couple little glasses of water between 3-4am. She had a big dinner too so I think that means she will be growing soon.

I guess we better head out and get some coffee, I should wake up...having a very hard time waking up this morning. Hopefully we can take a nap together later or something.

Fortunately she's being cute and happy this morning, no lasting affects with her, so that is good.
I wonder how much of this has to do with her transitioning from the toddler room to preschool, knowing we'll move in a few months with Geoff after we get married, and she misses a friend who doesn't come around much any more a lot...probably a combination of this and growing up...being a kid is tougher than we all remember I believe.

It's sunny & cold out...hope it warms up!

Three Months!

Wow...just realized while I was at work today...3 months from now I will be MARRIED!

I won't be single, won't be a single mom, it all feels so natural but very 'wow' at the same time. So far I have my sisters and my daughter officially in the bridal party...no dresses yet though. We have a location for both the ceremony and the reception too!

...in almost every aspect of my life are simultaneously changing:

• Planning a wedding
• K starting Preschool this week
• G's job situation altering daily
• Designing as much as possible what our home will look like (will it be done in 3 months..?)
• Wondering how on earth I'll pay for anything for the wedding/house etc.
• Getting used to my job as Visual Designer
• Pondering opportunities presented to have some art shows later this year
• I started going to church!! I actually found a place where I might be able to fit into..it is still tough but I'm looking forward to being a part of a community.
  

Yeah...and my to-do list is a monster:

• Get the daycare website up to par
• Get MY website up to par
• Get a wedding dress...and another bridesmaid? Two?
  
• Figure out childcare for my business trip in about a month
• Take some time to paint
• CLEAN the house/laundry/kid/dishes...
• Get wedding stuff straightened out...flowers, food, invites,
  

I am having a blast though!

Green SaaS

I work for a SaaS company, which is where I'm at now perusing through some design sites looking at what other designers are doing...I came across this Sustainable Design page and realized that what I do is actually really really good for the environment at least as far as it not having any packaging/production waste that is produced excessively like the old fashioned software industry, no disks, boxes, instruction manuals etc.

So I guess I'm doing sustainable design too :-)